So as most of you know, I graduated from Auburn about 16 months ago, and I moved to Charleston one week later. It was the biggest decision I’ve ever made, and it has been rewarding and amazing and overwhelming in so many ways. Charleston truly feels like home, and I don’t see myself going anywhere else anytime soon!
Right before I moved here, I had made the decision to really step up my blogging game, and Charleston has provided an amazing outlet for that. It’s a creative community – full of entrepreneurs and freelancers and creators. The atmosphere encourages you to reach for your dreams. So, I went for it and worked really, really hard on the blog. In fact, I didn’t realize just how hard I was working.
For months, I didn’t let a single Instagram post in my feed go unliked or a single blog I follow go unread (I follow about 70+ with usually 30-40 updating everyday). I posted every Monday through Friday, experiencing a terrible fear/anxiety when I missed a day. Oh, and this is not my full time job. I have one of those too – one that involves looking at social media and computer screens all day, everyday.
I feel like I’m suffocating reading that above paragraph. Did I see growth? Yes. Did I start making more money? Yes. Did I have opportunities that I had always dreamed of? Yes. Did I see a huge spike in anxiety? Absolutely.
Most of you reading may not know how much work goes into each one of these posts and maintaining a blog in general – and why should you!? We’re supposed to make it look effortless and fun. And sometimes it really, really, really is. I love this space! I always say I started this blog to share things I love with people I love, and that’s what I still want to do. But there are other things that come along with it all that I’m so. tired. of. doing.
Here…this is easier.
Things I love about blogging…
The people!!!! I can’t tell you how many amazing people I have met through blogging and how it has made my transition into the real world easier in so many ways.
Photography. Instagram is my favorite part about all of it, and you won’t see that changing at all!
Creating something I’m proud of. When I have a post I feel great about – whether it’s the collage or photos or just a really amazing sale that you may not have known about otherwise – I cannot wait to share it.
The perks. Look, I’m not going to lie right here. I love working with brands that make amazing jewelry and going on trips so that I can share them with you. That is really fun and something that (as a 23 year old freelancer) I would have never had the opportunity to do.
The opportunities it has provided. All three of my jobs were connections I made through blogging – not my college major – and I’m super thankful for that!
Things I don’t love about blogging…
Keeping up with the Joneses. It’s impossible not to compare yourself to those “bigger” bloggers and think – “I’m never going to get there because I can’t rock skinny distressed denim like that” or “She has 10x as many Instagram followers as I do” or “How does she afford all of those clothes and a photographer and trips and everything?!”
Not being transparent. You guys, I love my life. I really, really do. But the past 6 months have been maybe the hardest of my entire life. I don’t think it’s appropriate to go into detail about my personal life over here (my mom would kill me), but I also don’t think it’s fair to pretend like my life is avocado toast and fancy cocktails and smiley outfit photos because let me tell you the honest to God truth – it’s not. There are days where I can’t get out of bed until 3PM because some stupid guy did something that really hurt my feelings. There’s such a fine line between creating happy, beautiful content and portraying a life that you’re not living. For me, Instagram is supposed to be beautiful – if you want the real life picture, check here or snapchat (anniereeves).
The pressure of the numbers. Over the past few weeks, I’ve been popping in periodically which has been great. In the back of my mind though, it’s hard not to think about those numbers dropping off slowly as people get tired of checking back in.
Missing out on offline life. I’ve been enjoying my nights after 6PM SO MUCH, y’all. I hate that for so many months I was setting aside hours at night to write blog post. This is really a scheduling thing on my part, but I want to make sure I’m not missing time with friends or exploring Charleston just to get a post up at 6AM everyday.
So what’s going to change? I’m honestly not too sure. I want to get back to why I started doing this in the first place – not worrying about the money or the perks or the numbers or any of the junk that I didn’t know about in the first place. I’ll be popping in a few times a week to share the good stuff with you. I’d love to see it be 4-5 times a week, but I’m going to try not to put any specifics on it right now.
Another thing I love is writing posts like More than a Fashion Show and Just a B Paper. I don’t know if those things interest you guys at all, but I love the longer, more heartfelt posts. If there is any topic you’d like me to talk about, please let me know!
In the same breath, if there’s anything that you really love on the blog or don’t get excited about when you see, I’d really really like to know about that. You can comment, email, call, text, snapchat me – but I would love the feedback as I’m shaping the blog and rethinking the path it’s going to take.
Thanks so much for reading and for understanding and for being awesome. You people are seriously the BEST!
Love from the bottom of my heart, Annie